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CHAPTER 10

"You're ... aren't you?" Njabulo's words at the nightclub haunt me. What does he think of me?

I feel nauseous.

I am outside the club. My breath feels thick in my throat. Kebone is with me. "Hey, Nathi, what's going on?" She puts her hand on my shoulder. I shake my head. "I'm phoning my mom to come and fetch us," she says. "You really don't look well." 

My head is a whirlpool. I feel I am not in my own skin. This hasn't happened. Not to me.

Njabulo wanted to kiss me. What if I had let him? Something in me wanted to. Something didn't.

"You're ... aren't you?" he asked.

Yes, I am ...

No, I am not! 

I am Nathi Ndebele. I have a girlfriend. Sort of. My body is tough from soccer. One muscle on top of the other. I am a real man. That's also what Musa said. That's what I am. I love sport. I swear. I like beer. I don't swing my hips when I walk. I don't bat my eyelids. I don't flap my hands around in the air.

I am a man!

And yet.

"You're ... aren't you?" Njabulo had asked.

QUESTION: What does a "real man" look like? How does a "real man" behave?

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  1. 5 Aug. 2012
    114. Gorgeous1 says

    A real man is sm1 wh0 takes resp0nsibility 4 hs actins n do wats right

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  2. 18 April 2012
    113. (x)(F)Shareen+Mathews(F)(x) says

    i wondr....

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  3. 16 April 2012
    112. (x)(F)Shareen+Mathews(F)(x) says

    I can see dt nathie is pretending 2 be sum1 he aint...jst 2 look good on hs friends nd 2 excite hs father

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  4. 4 Dec. 2011
    111. $*8-)+T€€+K@¥+8-)*$ says

    A real man strictly dates females and bahave like a gentle man.

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  5. 23 Nov. 2011
    110. $Nelstar+ka+zaks+4evr$ says

    A real man is defined bt hz action nd they way he treats the ppl surounding hm..dats wat i cal a real man swit(H)

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  6. 10 Nov. 2011
    109. T.SPOTILIOUS says

    Real man...i have seen guys trying 2 real man...denying who they are,a real man is a guy who knws where he stand,his at ease with life,most of all acts humanly.

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